I have been having suicidal thoughts. And it’s becoming more frequent. I’m scared. I used to despise the thought of committing suicide. But now.. now I’m thinking about doing that to myself. I need help. I’m lonely. I don’t have friends around me now. The ones that really care about me are far and hard to reach. I’m always worried that if I contact them too much I would be a burden and irritate them. I’m tired of being the one that is always trying to reach out to people, to initiate conversation, to maintain a friendship. I’m tired..