I am in a constant state of loneliness. I am surronded by people, but I am already aching for the special someone I am meant to spend the rest of my life with. I hate sleeping by myself, yet I’m forced to do it every night. I know I’m way too young to feel like this, but I do. I’m sick of being ignored by everyone. I just want my soul mate to find me already and save me from myself. I’m sick and tired of dealing with my problems and being the supportive friend for everyone I know. No one is there for me. No one will help me carry my burdens, even though I carry theirs. I want my soulmate to be here and wrap his arms around me and kiss me and love me despite all of my flaws. I want to be myself around him and quit hiding behind the facade of “I’m okay, I’m always okay”. Cus I’m not. I’m afraid that no one will ever love me, and that I’ll end up sad and alone forever. And the loneliness hurts so badly. I’m crying myself to sleep every night.