I have a severe p********** addiction. I want it to end but it is very difficult. I feel like God despises me for this. It causes horrible and traumatic guilt because it gives me awful acne and it strains me. It has been 7 years starting from 11 doing this. I want it end here and now. I am 18 and I cannot look at myself seeing that I cannot end a terrible affliction. I don’t want a partner or anyone, this calamity has to end. God forgive me and help myself and all others who suffer the same and want an end.