My first love holds me back from moving forward. It’s been over a year since we have spoke and a little longer since I have seen him. He threw me away like I meant nothing after we had been torn apart and sent to different cities. He left my life the day I moved to my new town. Every person I flirt with or try to start something new with gets ruined by thoughts and memories of him. I even find myself talking about him on dates.. I miss what we had together. I miss how he made me feel.. wanted for once in my life. He was my silver lining, my happiness. My heart still aches for him more than ever. I continue to walk around with a hole in my chest ever since they moment he said goodbye. There has not been one day that has gone by without a thought of him crossing my mind. I would take him back in a mile-second. I hope he returns to me someday, or that I at least will heal from this.
I wonder how much longer it will take… I’m so tired of missing you..