I’m a bisexual teenage boy, and I keep getting myself into the same shameful situation. I mean, it’s only happened twice technically, but it’s something I’d think I woulda learned from the first time. Other guys who I’ve been friends with for a really long time start making s***** overtures at me, and I respond back, considering I’m not really looking for a relationship right now, and we’ve know each other for so long that it’s like, well why not? And so we do stuff (first time it was me giving a b****** and then getting dry humped and stuff, second time it was sending a bunch of nudes) and then they inform me that hey, they’re DATING A GIRL. Well, the second situation is still going on, and the first situation turned out…. really bad. With the first situation, the guy told me that since his girlfriend lived far away, it wouldn’t be THAT BAD if we… continued to be friends with benefits. So, we did stuff a few more times, always in secret- we had school together, and sometimes in class he’d reach over under our desks and rub the insides of my thighs and stuff, and then in the morning one time (I got dropped off early at school) he drove and picked me up in his car and I blew him again. And then this all kinda culminated in him being like “I’m a terrible person and I’m sorry I’ve been doing this but I really wanna have s** with you, just once” and so he picked me up from school, we drove to his house, I lied to my parents and said we went to Starbucks, and we had really amazing s**. Believe it or not, I was a virgin prior to this whole experience. After that we went through this cycle of him being REALLY EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE and saying that we both should kill ourselves to him being like “wow I really NEED s** with you, it’s fantastic” until both of us just got really sick of it. And then the second time, instead of being far away, this kid’s girlfriend actually is someone I KNOW- and someone who’s really nice, and cares about him a lot. I know that the right thing to do would be to either tell her, or tell him to knock it off, or both, or just forget about the whole thing, but…. I’ve been so s******* frustrated lately that this is kinda a gift from heaven for me. I know that this is the worst thing I could possibly do in this situation, and it’s probably gonna have awful consequences but- I really kinda wanna. Pursue something s***** with him. I’m the worst kind of person.