in few day I will be 27
I am getting older and older and no progression on life. I have been unemployed for over 4 years. all day I am at home doing nothing, just wasting my life.

about 2years ago out of fraustration I curse God so much and beg him for mercy to punish me, give me schizoprenia and prove to me that you exist. And guess what? he exists. I have been schizoprenia patient since then, medication has helped alot but there is no mental problem history on my both parent trees and I got schizrophenia after few days of cursing God!

My advice to you is never curse god and never ask for stupid things, ask for blessings and good things do not make the mistake I did.

my fraustration was not worth schizoprhenia.

when I was 8 I used to like a this girl alot and at 16 I sent her an email saying I love you and got the worst possible reply and that trigger some sort of depression.
2 years ago my grandmother died and the parents of this girl come to my house to stay for a few days and I said to them that I still love your daughter. the day they left I freekout got a panic attack and started to hear voices (schizoprenia). just few months back I cursed God to give me and this happend.

I just want to say I am sorry God for what I did, please forgive me and help me to get my life on track.

Thank You