I’ve lied about a lot of things the past few years. some terrible, others stupid and extremely small. I’ve been doing it a lot lately. I’m not naturally a liar and I dislike liars, however somehow I turned into one. I’m completely stopping it, I feel like (I know) I’m losing friends and have because of it. I became so bored with myself, my life, so sad about how pathetic of a person I seemed to be. There was nothing exciting about myself or my life, or my past. I ended up saying little things just to make people laugh or seem interested, or terrible things so people would stay and I would get remorse. it’s terrible, I know. Part of me is glad that this happened so young and that so many others seem to be doing the same thing, however I still feel terrible. There needs to be a change and I need to improve myself and my life. I’m not a bad person at all, and I’m trust worthy with whatever you want to tell me (but how would you know? I feel like I’ve said so many thing to make people think they can’t trust me at all..). I just need to stick to what is true and what is not, which needs to start today. Completely. for the rest of my life