I’m so good at covering up how I actually feel. I get so angry at my family because they’re always fighting, but my face never changes. I have so much built up anger, sadness, and frustration that I just started feeling numb….like nothing matters anymore because there’s nothing I can do about it anyway. I never get asked to hang out or anything. It used to bother me a lot but now I just don’t care. I used to get so excited about certain things..but nothing seems to have any effect on me anymore. I’m just kinda here. I keep hoping that it will get better when I go to college…but sometimes I can’t picture myself there. I feel so out of touch with everything that I can’t even imagine a future that involves other people. I push everyone away in one way or another. Obviously…because instead of talking to a friend, I’m posting on a confession site.