I can’t stop comparing myself to others. I see myself as a pile of dirt that everyone avoids. I don’t want to get close to anyone because I know I won’t be good enough and I’ll get hurt. Not like anyone would even want to get close to me. All of my friends, the very few that I have are tall, tan, skinny, and perfect in every way. So why do they keep me around? Am I the pudgy pathetic girl that they can compare themselves to for guys? I hope they’re decent enough not to do that. Maybe they just feel bad and don’t want to desert me. Either way, every day feels horrible. I feel like there’s no reason for me to even be here. I have no talent, I’m not pretty, I’m mean and push everyone away. So really, just get rid of me now. Please.