I hate whiners..I hate complainers so I’ve shut up for years and I had to tell someone tonight how I feel, how I truly feel. I’m laying next to my husband of almost 6 years and almost every night I look back and reflect on how different my life should’ve been. I married very young because that’s what my family insisted on and I married my first boyfriend because again that’s what my family insisted on. I never went to college and turned down modeling and acting opportunities because according to my family, I was just a girl and nothing special. I’m not saying how my life turned out is their fault, it’s mostly mine for not being strong enough to stand up for myself. My husband is an immature emotionally abusive person. He’s refused for me to learn how to drive and I work as a waitress so he can afford all the latest gaming technology…he’s never hit me but he makes me cry with his words almost every day. The one time I tried to leave, I found out I was pregnant so I went back and now we are having another child and I am almost completely dependent on him…there it is, my sad little story. Some people have a tough row in life to hoe and I’m one of them. But like I said, it’s a situation of my doing and I’m not a complainer..I just needed someone to know, that I’m miserable almost every day and tonight I realized that this is what I have to look forward to for the rest of my life..What a stupid waste