I have the lowest self confidence in the world. I can’t look at myself in the mirror. I’m overweight at 294, I’m not too great looking either. I can’t be intimate with anyone for fear they’ll never talk to me again, like all the rest. And then I’ll just lose it.

I haven’t done s*** with my life. All my struggles have been too much for me, just one person to deal with. I’m 27 and still alone, all my boyfriends (the few I’ve had) used me for money and anything else they wanted. They didn’t love me. I don’t love me, either. How could I. I’m not loveable. I’m hideous.