im really f****** hating my face right now. i look disgusting. i want to starve. i have a goddamn double chin and it disgusts me. my lips are huge and gross looking. my face is fat. my eyebrows are ugly. my rolls are repulsive. im so done with being such a lard. i want to fast. ive gained so much weight. i look horrid. i feel horrid. im in such a s***** f****** mood oh my god i want to cry but i dont want him to worry so ill just wait until he falls asleep. f***.