Also you are not my type of person. Not even close but I think you would be great for a few people I knew at one time.

I said people I knew at one time.

As for that I probably never said “alright, well I think I’m done here, don’t call me… later….” and because that I think because it was me, people would try to get in touch with me at random times, so it was never really established. So at the time, they’re tracking me down on MSN (Jee that’s not suspicious when you are the only one with that info…) they’re literally like octopus tentacles coming through my door. I shut that down quickly if you remember. People go off in different directions and that’s what happened, and I said “well, I’m staying here, I better get a bit for a grip and try to do SOMETHING” and maybe I decided I was better off doing it without other people. For some reason. Not sure why, maybe in my subconscious they either weren’t completely genuine and I was not satisfied with the chain of the way s*** was in that whole thing, the heirarchy, and I went rogue instead. Without any really thinkkng that save what I was doing. Maybe I do better when I’m on my own. Maybe I saw myself as better than that. Same deal with what I saw in you while getting over that whole thing. But me not establishing “look, I need some space here, don’t call me…” kind of left the door open. It’s easier to cross lines if you think your dealing with me from that time. From way back then.

So what does that say about how much I care? Ya know? Like f***. It was never me reaching out ever. Can’t say the same for them. What do you suppose that means? Not that there was hard feelings, just you know…