I won’t post this on facebook because I don’t want anyone asking me what’s wrong. I don’t want to have to explain.

I told everyone I was feeling sick and that’s why I’m staying in bed. Truth is I’m so depressed and anxious I don’t want to leave the bed. Like a child, I hope that by hiding from my problems I’ll make them vanish.

I tried to fix everything but I failed. Everyone is at fault here and I don’t know what to do. My only idea is to hide from everything and hope it will get better on its own. It’s not fair. I thought that the s*** hit the fan before, but that was only the beginning. An explosion is coming and I can’t handle it. I’ve been fantasizing about killing myself. Or trying. Maybe if I give everyone a tragedy to focus on they’ll forget their hatred for each other.

I don’t know what to do… God please help me.