i have difficulties in letting sad things and grudges go away.
I am still mad at my elder brother for not letting me play with my younger sister when we were kids.
I still feel like stabbing my first boss and her husband and her kid for shouting at me in the presence of all other workers, while never guide me on how to do the job. I dared her to fire me but she didn’t, I was transferred to other department.
I hate my bosses in the second company as well, I had 3 bosses and I was their only employee. The first boss always made me feel like a stupid person who could never do anything right, the second boss treated me like I was his girlfriend, always asked me to go out for meals with him, and when i refused he still insisted so the other two bosses told me I shouldn’t flirt with my second boss like that, but I said to them that they should tell that directly to the second boss instead, it was him flirting and not me. Then the third boss used me as his driver, to pick him up anywhere, then send him anywhere, including to meetings and shopping, while the first boss was mad at me saying I was out of office and not doing my work I should do. F*** those bosses.
Then in the third company I worked with, I was paid only for the first 3 months. Then they never paid me or other workers, then the office was sealed by the fifth month so I was jobless. Then I came to work with a newly formed government department, loved the job but there was not enough staff, the workload was killing me and my colleagues were the most selfish, evil, laziest, and most incompetent workers I have ever known. They talked at each other’s back too. The pay was the lowest I have received ever so I quit after six months, got married and I don’t feel like working anymore. I enjoy staying at home but my mother and my parents in-law keep pushing me to get a job. It stressed me out. I don’t feel confident to get another job, I feel like it would be as s***** as the previous jobs. I don’t know that for sure, I am just afraid.