I dont show off my care and love towards my parents.. But it’s always there.. Deep down!!
This may sound too dumb or too philosophical and way too long to many but it runs in my life..
I may not wear what my mom selects for me.. I may not do it like how my dad says.. But when i see them being physically hurt, there jumps out that another person within me who will do anything to protect them no matter what!!
I’ve an animal at my home.. You’ve to feed it, do what it asks for, give what it asks for, care it, love it, treat it wisely, pay it.. And after all of it, what you get back is just a worse treatment like S***!! yeah! It’s my own elder brother.. I disgust to call him my brother, so i would rather address him as an ‘animal’!
Have you ever lived a life where your own sibling beat the crap out of your parents? Have you ever seen them wrestling like enemies? Have you ever lived a life in fear? Have your ever seen your mom being hurt by a belt by her own son? Have you ever seen a dad being knocked down by his own son? But all they do is love their kids no matter what they did to them..
I did see it.. Infact for 10 long years..
You know you are not a human if you stand still right there watching all of it.. Bt you cannot fight down an animal if you are a petite thing..
Every night the same fight, the same arguments, the same swearing, the same weeping.. It’s enough for me! Why is this only happening to me.. I strongly believe in that force that is watching over us.. Bt why is he not saving us from this? Not me but atleast my mom and dad…
I love my dad you know.. He’s the complete man of patience and love.. He cares for my mom me and that animal like something.. He will still do anything to keep us happy even if it hurts him.. He has been using a shirt 5 years old and dont care to buy a new one but buys for each of us instead.. I respect him from the core of my heart.. And my mom.. She tires herself out cooking but will never complaint on it to any one of us.. She cares a lot.. The pure care of a mother.. Every day she cries so much worried about that animal.. I’ve been crying my eyes out every night.. It is so difficult to cry making sure that my mom is not listening cause that will only hurt her more and i cant let that happen..
I should act strong for them even if i’m breaking down..
I know that there are people with worse life than mine bt still.. I’m truly helpless..
I lost all the hope and colour in my life.. I’ve been walking around like a zombie.. I hardly have friends.. Many of them are fake.. All they care about is hot guys, s*** figures of models, movies, what miley did and blah blah.. The chick-talk! My mind never stays there cause it’s always worried about my mom and dad! I’m worried about what is going to happen tonight.. Who is gonna get hurt? It’s like living in pain..
Why live a life like this? Always felt like ending this cursed life.. But the love for my dad and mom pulls me back from doing so! Who can console and give them some hope after i die? So i should keep my heart beating atleast for them..
I dream to graduate the univ, get a job, earn some money, save it, buy a new home, move my mom and dad to that place.. Keep them happy and safe.. That animal will still be a pain in their heart and i cannot do a thing for it.. But atleast i must make sure that’s the only pain for them..
I love them! I will never hurt no matter what and will make them proud one day for sure no matter what.. Hope the god i believe will be there with me all the way along..
