Today I am 35 and starting, yet again, another medicine mixture.
I have battled ADHD, severe anxiety, and depression, and am so tired of trying everything to see what works. Without my meds I feel like there is a thick cloud in my head. I can’t think straight and I can’t focus. Sometimes its hard for me to be around anyone or go to work, even though I love it.
Only one person knows about my medicines and I’m embarrassed to talk to anyone besides my doc about it. I wish I could talk to someone in my same shoes. Technically, I have a mental illness, though I’ve never said that out loud. My doctor constantly asks if I’m going to hurt myself or others, but that’s never even crossed my mind. I just want to feel normal and not have my mind racing.
You would think I was fine. I have a nice job, my physical health is fine, and both men and women find me attractive. I always thought that if someone new something was wrong, that they could just change, but I can’t.
I was weaned off of one of the meds last week while starting this one. I was shakey, sick, and sensitive to noises. talk about panicked… The one person who knows made me go out and eat
What really gets me is that many of the meds leave me unable or nearly unable to ejaculate. ….try explaining that to your partner. Some men would kill to stay hard for a long time, but finishing would be really good too.
