why is everyone talking about p***? Is it a form of diversion from hiding the true feeling of depression? idk, who knows, that’s just the world we created. I just wish people could stop and think about all the things happening around, whether something positive or negative, the truth can never run away from us even if we try to push it away. But even with that, some people actually sees the world in a whole different perspective. Whether you’re rich, poor, mediocre, everyone has their own perspective. Some gained something positive and the ones who got something negative are quite unlucky.

It’ll get to the point where their mental stability is no more, just an empty shell with no purpose to live. That’s how i lost my Best friend today. He killed himself in his locked room in the middle of the night. His family said that he did not come out of his room for the past week, his family were worried sick, i was worried too but i did not put much thought into it since that’s the way he is. He’ll tell me some sick jokes from his fucked up humor, but hey, that’s how we got close in the first place. But now he’s gone, there’s no one telling fucked up jokes anymore, i miss him. I wish i could be there for him before his final moments.

And today i was thinking about getting myself buried next to his grave.