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I still love you. I will always love you… I know I messed it up… and I would do absolutely anything to revert that night… but I can’t. I’m sorry I didn’t just elope with you, and I regret ever walking home.
In my heart, I know we’re meant to be together; I know you felt it once too… every word we ever said… every minute we spent confessing our love for each other knowing how wrong it all was… but I still don’t regret it, and I never will. You were the best thing I’d ever had and now that I’ve lost you I truly hate myself…
G, I can’t get you off my mind. My heart goes crazy when I think of you. The best dreams I have is when I dream of you and I together at last – no one else to stand in our way, no one to tell us it’s wrong and no one to see… Just you. Just me.
I will cherish you until I die, and I will adore you from afar… but know, that even if my love goes unrequited… I will love you forever and always. I never stopped. Not for him. Never for him. Not even for my own good. Should I even attract your tender affections again, I will NEVER let you go. You’re my one. And I miss talking to you the way we did back then… My wretched heart will go on being wasted on him – someone I have no true feelings for other than hate. I do not deserve you. I never did. When you find a girl who will stay with you… I know that will be the day I die inside…
You’re my Heaven on Earth… I wish you knew this is my voice…
Perhaps, one day, you might find this and hate me for it… I wouldn’t blame you… But don’t you dare tell me to stop loving you. Because, darling, I have endlessly tried to rid myself of loving you so you might hate me and move on but I can’t. I can’t stop.
If I had 24 hours left to live… then you’d be the only person in the universe to stand by my side, holding my hand at the end… No one else but you. Remember that…?
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