You don’t know what it meant to me when you acknowledged how hard your current situation is on me and thanked me for everything that I’m doing. This is about you and you’re having a worse time than anyone so I try not to be a burden. I’m so proud of you.
I’m doing my best to take care of things for you while you’re gone, I take the brunt of your frustration and anxiety a lot and I’m always there when you ask me to be. I try so hard to show you that I love you and I support you.

When things have calmed down I hope that you’ll take care of me, too. I’m really not a strong person. I’m tired and I consider self harm a lot to think about something else. I feel like I did not sign up for this level of difficulty and pain so early in my first ever relationship. I waited all these years to be able to connect with someone and here I am terrified of the future. There’s also part of me that’s excited though because I want to spend it with you. I just don’t want to spend it worried sick about you constantly.