I am sorry
Too many things to say but i just cant
I fear i might hurt you which you have been much more and i feel thats on me
I dont want to anymore
I cant bear to see you in pain in agony
And the funny thing is even my silence is hurting you
I dont know what i am supposed to do
Should i even be saying all this ?
The ongoing battle in my mind about what if my action will hurt you prevent me from saying something stupid
Something that would make you change your mind
They say sometimes letting go is better than holding onto but i just cant let go of you.
Also, I dont want to win you if i could i surely would but that would be like snatching you.
Earning you is not what I want, I love you and thats all i want to give you.
I want you to come to me on your will, not because i want you to
I need you to have the same feeling of love, a strong feeling of chosing me no doubt in your mind where I belong.
If you really feel it in your bones, down to your very core and no matter what others think of you and me thats how i want you.
Not like this, this constant battle inside your mind not sure of what you really feel.
This confussion between us its killing me.
I cant help but keep on hoping for you to accept your feeling for me with no hesitation.
Not matter how hard i wanna express all this to you I just keep pushing it back because if i do ,i fear that your feeling for me will change.
All i want is nothing more but to see your happiness even if it means hurting my own feelings.