I struggle daily with the feeling there has got to be more. I battle the demons of sadness and self worth without cease. Nobody seems to understand it. I totally lose myself in books, fantasy books, anything other than day to day struggles. I dont even know what I am looking for anymore, it feels like love, romance, or just peace of mind are not even real. I am Christian, but I feel I even fail in that department. I try to love everyone, and be non-judgmental, and yet, I still lose my way there too. More than anything, I feel like I am slowly losing my mind.
