when I really loved r.godby it was like living a dream we would see each other and he would always be smiling so beautiful I felt overloaded with love for him … we would talk on the bus or at university or at the train station… til my sister got on to the idea I liked him and said that if I ever went out with him she would never talk to me again and that she remembered him first because she danced with him at parties as a child. and I said “well I remember him with his mother in church” then I was bashed going to university like you would think these people knew I really liked this guy… and within a week this guy had a new girlfriend I felt so sad. I was blown over about being bashed up on the way to university and mugged for my purse I had a nervous breakdown. never seen the guy again. my sister likes to have all the guys to herself.
i think it is happening again, no one else could be like godby for me… he was one of a kind… I do not know what happened to him but I would wish him the best. he was a short guy different to most of the guys I like … who are usually tall and well built in the chest etc I dont know if someone seen me and godby meet up or walk to the station or sit together on the train station but it looks like someone deliberately got in the way to stop us getting together.. this is not the first time this has happened to me, or the last, I am sure someone did not want me at QUT either and that was why I got that virus. this was much the same with rick … someone seen us walking through the streets together and at a car park, and we were stopped from getting together. people do not know how much this has ruined my life, man after man, breaking my heart, rick, William, ricky, etc and I can not take anymore broken hearts… it is killing me… I don´t need these games.