today, i had my boyfriend over.We did what we usually do but then it went further than expected.We ”basically” had s**.Now he didn’t go completely inside and neither of us were completely there (in a trance), but now i sit here crying about it.After what had happened we just stared at each other, pupils dilated and red eyed. Because neither of us was technically ready he thought he had just raped me.I assured him it wasn’t but he just kept saying it,and saying it and saying it utill we both started to cry.I tried to assure him, I knew it wasn’t r*** because truthfully we both enjoyed it and didn’t stop each other.But now i sit here, keyboard in hand crying because i made him cry and think all this madness.If i had pulled away in time none of this would have happened.I am 15, and i have just lost my virginity today