I’ve attempted suicide more than once, I recently took a OD on Aspirin, painkillers, and have been sort of hospitalized once. I Feel like my Mom is Disappointed in me because of me Cutting. Violent, I keep so much hidden. but I Always Catch her Looking at my mistakes or Looking to See if i’ve let go of any of my CODs. I can See the Disappointment in her Eyes. me and i just Feel like i Failed her. now I have to make up some dumb excuse to the specialist why I can not attend the appointment. even my invisible friends and demon friends gang up on me …