Sometimes I feel an overtaking sadness. On the outside I am a happy go-lucky girl who who is brimming with sunshine. Inside, when everyone goes to sleep I let myself fall apart. My life is not together. I am disappointed in a lot of things about myself. I am not as thin, pretty, smart or talented as I want to be. I want people to listen to me and hear me. I want to be important to someone other than then my parents and my friends who I have known since I was 10. There are lots of things I want that I don’t think I will get and I have no idea how to get them. I am falling apart slowly and every person who hurts me takes a chunk of me as they go. Some day there isn’t going ot be anything left for them to take.