Turns out I have a 9month old child that my girlfriend and I had together. She kept the kid a secret from me while raising the kid with another man, a man whom is in love with her. for years have told her to stay away from him because he is nothing but trouble. while I was away she had been living with him while making me think she was somewhere else.
once i get back the man contacts me and tells me about this secret affair. she tells me its that there’s no emotions and nothing happened. i try my best to overcome it and believe her, i’m sticking it out for the sake of our child. for the sake of our child and the remaining feelings i have for her i do my best. but out of spite/lust/stress (after being without physical contact) I went to a massage parlor and got a massage, felt up the masseuse, kissed without tongue and received 2 hand jobs.
i feel guilty because after the event i’m still deeply in love with my girlfriend and now i have this secret i have to keep from her to avoid hurting her despite how much she hurt me. i’m so messed up.
