No one understands. Even I don’t.
One minute I’m depressed. I can’t make myself do anything. I have so many things I want/need to do, but I just can’t. Then I think, boy, am I a lazy good for nothing. I need to just plow through my depression and get it done! Then I hate myself even more.
And just when my motivation was finally coming back.
I guess it’s just my fate to keep getting kicked. Might as well roll over and give up on trying to get up and move on.
But how can I do that? How can I just give up? I have a husband who loves me, a wonderful mother, things to live for… boy, I’m an ungrateful, selfish loser to wallow in self pity when I have so much to be thankful for. I sure do hate myself.
And the vicious cycle continues.
