*sorry I meant I wanted to be your friend not didn’t

Ashley is lucky . I’d do anything to have a bestie again like you . You’re interesting and a lot of fun . Or if you’re busy again with a relationship good luck with that .

I guess our conversations were something I missed so much. You seemed like someone I could talk to for hours about nothing . I loved laughing with you . Somehow having you around even if we just talked about stupid s*** made everything ok . I miss that and I’m jealous someone else gets that now . It s**** knowing something you wanted so much and for so long isn’t happening . Something so simple other people can have just picking up a phone . Feeling a connection. With someone . And also I’m not going to lie I really wanted to meet up with you again . Some fun weekend somewhere . And I wanted a hug . To cuddle …platonically lol and watch movies , do our nails . I wanted so much to spend time with you . Even on the phone . I adored every minute . I’m sorry this is so hard for me You gave me something I’m not used to and that love and care was so wonderful . There’s nothing to replace that nothing or no one to let go to . I understand you need to move and no longer want that buf I sure you can understand why it’s hard . Its not a reflection on you. Though ok . I still think you’re great . I’m just sad …also frustrated there’s nothing I can do to fix it any faster .

Have a good week. See here around here at some point