I need to confess everything on my heart, its weighing me down and I can’t feel any happiness. I lie to protect myself from what people think of me. I’ve told people I care about that I’ve been in two separate relationships that don’t and never existed. But I haven’t had a relationship since I was 19 and I’m now 27 and still a virgin. Even though I try to someone, nothing works out. I’m so sick of all the lies. I lose track of them and who I’ve told what. The most crippling of all this is the crushes I develop, they are so toxic, and it takes me so long to try and give them up. I can’t stand to look at myself, I consistently like men who don’t like me back. Which makes no sense because I’m actually really attractive. The crush because almost stalkerish, and I hate it, I hate it, I hate it!!!
Worst of all I stole a lot of money from my parents so I can make my life easier and do the things I want to do. I can’t ever repay this . I made a massive mistake. And I’m so sorry for everything. I hate what’ve done and who I have become. I confess I’ve been a horrible human being.
