when I was bashed at school and had a collapse after my great uncle tried to r*** me one day when everyone was out in 1986 … he wanted me to do it for the money that my grandmother had sent, always using money as the weapon when my father lost his job, I made my mother take me to a psychiatrist and they put me on tablets but I did not talk about the child abuse because I guess I forget with the collapse I wanted to talk about it but could not still believing I would get into trouble and bill would go to jail and all this shame and guilt would fall on me over the s***** stuff. I was taking mind bending pills and upset a lot, living in a dream world really. I left school and was out of it completely. I did home study for a while and that was not working great and brig used to come over a lot and we would be up all weekend movies, talking or my sisters boyfriend would come over and we would all go for a ride or to the drive ins or go graveyarding… we would watch these vampire movies and then go visit graveyards for fun. my sister and brig drank a lot and night clubed with steve but I did not I was too young.

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brig went to Germany in 1986-87 she had gone a few times to Germany and Greece to see her family. I did not go to brigs 21st birthday after all the things that happen because I was so upset I would have just cried and made a fool of myself getting upset all the time. I was nervous and a mess after those girls martin girls bashed me and bill. when I got into college a number of years later I used to hang around a lot of older people (not out of choice but out of fear of younger men) they only nice guys I ever talked to was a ex-cop tony who went to the gym all the time, and bugsy was in my legal class but left after a week just like the guy that looked like nichlos rowe did left after a week in drama class. I only went out nightclubbing once with teachers and to a party once with another teacher the whole time. that year my sister got married.