i cant feel love like i used to. im unable to let myself be open enough to fall in love again. i have a romantic partner as of right now and they genuinely care for and love me, but im unable to love them the same way. late last year, i started working with him. i had seen him a few times before; he was a good friend of one of my ex’s. i slowly began to form “feelings”.i’m still not completely sure if i really….. i mean now that i think about it i did form some kind of feelings. just not the feelings im used to. also before him i was in a relationship of 4 years. i began to form feelings while still being in the other relationship. i had planned on spending the rest of my life with this other person. but as time went on my feelings for him had faded. we have a long history. he had honestly been very s***** to me for most of the relationship. it was never intentionally. he never insulted me or physically hurt me. he just would ignore me for virtually everything else. and ontop of that he was very p*** addicted which made me feel like s*** about myself because i knew i wasn’t what he wanted physically. but anyway, he gradually started treating me better after three years of being nothing. i guess my love for him had faded away. i would find myself desperately trying to feel something, anything, for him. i rarely could. i found myself thinking about my current partner more and more. i originally wanted to be with both of them but looking back on it that was really dumb they are both very insecure and have told me they dont want anyone else to have me. god what a f****** joke. im not something to f****** own. im sure he doesnt think that of me. my current partner says if i dont want to be with him anymore he wouldnt be mad at me. i just dont know if i should be with