i just started college and it’s great. I love the campus and the environment… but I’m so worried about the financials making it through that I can barely enjoy anything and then I’m having difficulties making friends other than my high school best friend/college roommate. I feel like there’s this black hole that I’m getting sucked into. I’m losing it. I wanna cry sometimes. There are great moments but when it comes down to it I am being left in the dust. I haven’t made any friends that I hang out with, so the only one I see is my HS best friend. I am getting to resent the dorm room because that’s where my stress catches back up to me. I need to have my own life. I need to have friends and all that stuff that made me get through HS. I am always battling depression it seems, since high school. I want to be normal. I want to feel how everyone else does. I want to be happy not just when I’m out n about but when I’m alone. I want a reason to smile…
