If you want me to be honest with you, if I had the emotional numbness necessary, I would’ve choked a lot of the people in my life to death. However, I can’t do so because I love them too much to do so. it has been a major… illusion, of mine for ages now, and honestly, i wish t get rid of it. How can you help the feeling of wanting to kill people you love if they pissed you off so many times, and then act like nothing happened?