If it mattered to you, all you had to do, was

1)realize where you went so wrong all those years ago, so very wrong. You had to know it, what it all did, not sugar coat it, and it was you. I contributed nothing destructive in the ways you did. In fact I would bet it was harder for you to lose me when you did than it was for me to lose you when I did. You need to really get it though.

2)Be good for a period of time. Years. It doesn’t mean stay single, don’t go out, have fun, it means, you need to choose wisely. You need to respect me even away from me. It’s not like you can’t get what you want anywhere else, easy. You CAN say no to certain things. That s*** years ago was some negative s***. You need to give it time, and be good, you need to be everything you weren’t, intentionally, for years. You need to not talk to certain people, stay completely away from them, get rid of the ones you know are negative creeps, and you would know who to stay away from. Actually I can’t tell you what to do, you don’t need to do anything but if it was that important to you, you need to do and not do certain things because I would expect it. I take that in myself. I expect, but that’s what I would give too.

3)Then eventually you would need to stalk me on a given day, and catch me outside of a vehicle. I’m not hard to find, I’m very easy to find if you talk to the right people, probably accurate to the ft. Find me, catch me outside of a vehicle and lay it on me for real in a way that I believe and I can tell is genuine. That’s all that needed to be done. It is on you too, it’s not easy. Its not like I have any idea where you are. I don’t think I need to prove much to you, you would need to prove the world to me.