I keep having unprotected s** with randoms
I’m a female, and I live c**. I used to m********* to the idea of gangbangs and being impregnated. The problem is when I started college last year I started acting on it. It started where I’d use a condom and just f*** random guys, but I kept craving the feeling of s**** inside of me. I gave in one weekend with guy at the gym. I just slutted my up to him and asked him to my dorm and I kissed and stroked him and all that good stuff to get him hot and bothered. Then I just started riding him. I don’t know if he as okay without using protection, but he didn’t object. When he came inside me I flipped my s*** and orgasmed harder than I ever have before. Just the idea of a guy who’s name I didn’t quite know shooting a load inside of me, with the potential of me getting pregnant just did me over. I started seeking him out for more and that was nice, but sometimes he wasn’t available and I needed my fix. So I’d find someone else. Each new stranger just increased the intensity, because the risks got greater. It got to the point where it wasn’t just on the weekends but I started doing it five or 6 nights a week. Sometimes on breaks or long weekends I’d stay up all night and call 3 or 4 guys one after the other. A month ago just before school started I went on a four night binge where I slept with three of my usual f*** buddies the first couple nights and filled the rest with a few randoms from a gas station. I think I fucked close to 20 different guys over that week. I can’t even count anymore and it’s making me feel disgusting. I end up feeling gross and like a w****, then the idea of being a w**** turns me on or I get depressed so I go out and f*** some more to get my mind off of how terrible I’ve been.
I’ve gotten confirmation that I’m pregnant. I’ve had scares before but they all ended up miscarrying each time. Now I’m far enough along where that is a lot less likely. Not only that, but who knows how many f****** diseases I have and how many guys I’ve given them too. I don’t know what to do, I’ve tried to stop before, but I feel like I need it when I don’t have it for a few days and then I go crazy and go even more than I normally do to make up for it. This is a throwaway, although I might keep it to have discussions on this thread for a while.
