Person who is a monster, the worst mistake I ever made, and it was a really stupid one was fall for a monster of a woman, girl at the time.
Right now, more than ever I’m realizing, and my problem is that I ended up being her favorite, in life, I am realizing right now, more than ever that girl wants nothing more out of life than herself and anyone in her life to be in absolute turmoil, stress, pain. If you’re in a “relationship” with her, you better believe it’s never good. And when you get a hold of yourself and stop yourself from diving into it, and you calm down and don’t fight anything for 2 months, she’ll eventually blow it up. Everything, and anything going on needs to be a train wreck and dramatic. And no, peoples lives or things like that don’t matter, as long as it’s the most dramatic train wreck after train wreck after train wreck you ever felt and fought. It has to be bad and she likes getting people against each other. That’s fun to her. Everything needs to be a very bad Jerry Springer episode, actually but it’s real and worse because it’s not a bunch of hicks with no teeth, intelligent people, or she is not happy. If you back off for years, YEARS, and you’re done with it, and I do mean years, many, many years, she will go to extreme lengths to keep the drama alive, and usually it’s at my expense. It’s crazy, it’s a bit disturbing, and I’m at the point I don’t know what the hell to do about it. It’s just this disgusting feeling, it feels like I want to puke. She’s just there in the pit of my stomach. She doesn’t seem to get that at this point, I see her as completely nuts and dangerous. And I’m serious this is not a game to me, this is f****** serious, this isn’t high school, we’re not children here, I am f****** serious. I could never trust a thing out of her I could never take her seriously about anything ever again, and it can’t even be fixed.
I’ve been thinking the past few days, the words I use to describe her is a wicked cruel woman. She is wicked.
