26-04-11(13:44:58)

This year I grew up
I lost best friends and found other ones even better. They taught me that change is good even with all the drama and the fights and the tears and the lies or misunderstandings, as some may call it…
The boy I knew for six years and loved for two told me he loved me but you know what I did? I told him no because I moved on. I found that very easy to do even for me who have waited eagerly for that day hoping when it would finally come. And I do not regret it because it’s easier for me because I don’t want to give him hope for something I don’t want to happen anymore
Getting over it is hard but you need to keep moving on, it’s called life et “la vie est une chienne”.
I then encountered a girl special in her own way, doesn’t say much but says enough, enough to make you want more than friendship and that’s what I got after two weeks of talking and controlling ourselves knowing that we won’t and can’t have a relationship we kissed and it was different than what I have imagined it would be. With that came heartbreaks and crushes that were crushed but: no regrets just lessons learned.
I saw her yesterday and I saw her eyes, those beautiful green eyes and I saw what she was going through and I hugged her hoping everything will get better because it will, maybe not towards what she’s hopping for but it will
I saw 2 best friends say goodbye to each othe last night and that brought tears into my eyes because that is not how it’s supposed to end specially after 12years and I know it won’t. And “after a week, a year, a decade, we will still have each other just with more wrinkles” and you will <3
I saw my new best friend last night too(she knows who she is 🙂 ) , sad even behind her smile her laugh and her hugs she was sad, and the hardest thing is that I didn’t know what to do or what to say except hugging her and kissing her and telling her that I’m here(even if its cheesy) but I hoped it will cheer her up and make her forget her first love and biggest heartbreak and i have to be strong for her and make her forget even if its the hardest thing she can do but she has to
I think I said what wanted to say .. in my own way with tears in my eyes and ready to cry, because I just want everything to be okay and this s*** to stop
And remember, what a wise friend told me : “everything will be okay in the end. If its not okay it not the end <3”
peace

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