So I’m gay, and 25 and I live on the west coast with my boyfriend, who is 23. We recently let one of our friends crash with us for a while until he figured out a living situation when his parents kicked him out. He is more my friend than my boyfriends, as I’ve known him longer. He is straight, and I’ve always known him to be, although have questioned his s********, as well have others. Anyways, my boyfriend went away on vacation with family and while he was away, me and the friend went out drinking, and wound up getting home wasted. We started talking about random drunk things, and I’ll admit, I sort of forced the subject toward s** a bit. I wound up asking him to show me his d***, kidding at first, and then with some convincing he did. I then slyly asked if I could touch it, and he replied right away ” you promise you won’t tell anyone?” And I quickly relied, “yes” and pulled it out of his shorts. he was already hard before i took it out. asked him if I could s*** it, he replied ” yes” and I did for about a minute before he stopped me and looked down frantically, and looked stunned at what had happened. I calmed him down a little and we decided never to talk about it ever again. I asked if he liked it the next day and he said no. But since he already had a b**** im assuming from our conversation and where it lead, I feel like he did like it and just freaked. I feel really guilty for cheating on my boyfriend and also cause I feel like I coerced my friend into letting me give him a b******. I also cheated on my boyfriend dozens of other times with different guys in the past, plus 2 other guys just since he went on vacation not including my straight friend.