I have type II Bi Polar disorder, and it has RUINED my life. I don’t want to go on anymore. I’m so tired of the b*******, rehearsed, faux-sympathy statements that people say to me. “Don’t be so negative”, “you just need to do something to change your life”. It’s not going to change, there is no cure for my condition. Only ‘treatment’. Worthless treatment that does nothing to actually make things better, it only makes me numb. I want out. I want out of this world of s***. World of piss. World of lairs. World of monsters. Sooner or later, I will finally work up the courage to kill myself, but the fact that I can’t go through with it makes me feel even more ashamed, more pathetic, more worthless. I want to die, I just want to be dead, and put this world of s*** behind me. The world went on fine before I was here, and it will go on after I finish the deed.
