WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO YOU
I met a man who told me that I was not a christen because I would not forgive them hurting me. he said that I was not a christen because I wanted a boyfriend and s***** intimacy. he said that I was not a christen if I would not be what people wanted. I said I could not be those things.

he told me that he wanted me to be christen so therefor I should not want s** with him or men, or want love. he told me that I should be happy with my small backward life. he wanted me to pity myself and adore him. he wanted me to wallow in his powerfulness.

he wanted me to forgive all these people who had s******* abused me and I could not, and I still can not.

AND I DON’T FEEL LIKE LESS OF A CHRISTEN FOR WANTING A BOYFRIEND OR HUSBAND, OR FOR DESIRING S***** RELATIONS, OR FOR WANTING MORE OUT OF LIFE. I DON’T FEEL LESS OF A CHRISTEN JUST CUZ I CAN NOT FORGIVE THOSE WHO HAVE HURT ME AND RAPED ME.