I am the shittest person I know. I am a coward, a liar, a monster, etc. I hurt my ex-boyfriend emotionally and I want him back. He is disgusted by me and

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I am the shittest person I know. I am a coward, a liar, a monster, etc. I hurt my ex-boyfriend emotionally and I want him back. He is disgusted by me and I can’t live with myself anymore. I have a pile of suicide notes because I have been too scared to actually do it. I am hoping that the night I am writing this is the night I can finally do it. I broke up with my ex 3 times because I thought he would be better off without me. Every time he took me back but the last time he took me back he changed his mind. Said that I had changed too much and was too unstable. He told me to kill myself and I should have just done it at the time. The truth is, is that I love him with all my heart and would do anything for him. I guess when it gets too much it gets too much.

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