It’s been almost 8 months since the love of my life decided he wanted his ex back….we had been on and off for two years due to him wanting a one of two of his ex’s back….a lot of people told me that i shouldn’t have stayed so faithful to him even when he broke my heart multiple times….but what else was i to do? I was and still am madly in love with him and knowing that he’s made a final decision to be with someone else..it breaks my heart. I mean i know that i’ll never be with him again but i can’t help but keep hope that one day he’ll realize that he wants me again….I haven’t seen him since December and we don’t talk anymore…..i’ve tried to be with other guys to try to get him out of my head but no matter what i do i just can’t seem to love/care for another person let alone even touch someone else. I just can’t do it…i feel like i’m slowly drowning and every day it becomes harder and harder to breathe….i miss my Awex….i miss his funny scoobi-doo impersonation…i miss his smile…his laugh…hell i even miss how he smells….whenever i’m in public and i smell something that smells like him i immediately start tearing up and it gets hard to breath….i hate this feeling of knowing that i’m not his anymore…..