I grew up with a friend who I thought I loved. she fooled me. I knew her from the age of a baby, we were like sisters or cousins, we went places together, we slept in the same bed, we told each other secrets and dreams. one day she just turned on me, well the truth was she had done that a million times each time she got a new boyfriend to have s** with for a few months or often a year it was the most she stayed with them, then she would come running back to me and my family each time. other cousins had done much the same to me.

I made a decision a few years ago to stop running when the b****** called or barked.

I was always left behind to rot.

I realized this friend never loved me at all. I sucked into guilt and pity over her family loss with tragic death. she sucked me out and spat me out every god dam time.

I had a talk about her yesterday to my parents and openly cried about how much I loved her as a sister and friend, and I told them I knew she never loved me at all.

she betrayed me with every man she could fool around with behind my back.

I know I am stronger and a better person without her in my life or heart.

goodbye pain maker, love faker!