Okay, honestly? If I don’t get a job soon, I will honestly take my own life. I had a job with Kohl’s in 2012, but they failed to tell us that it was only one day. Since then, the struggle to get a job has been real. I’ve been turned down TWELVE times. Twelve! It’s either the fact I owe T Mobile $945 or because employers think I’ll leave a job after day (thanks to Kohl’s), but it’s really getting to me. My family (which is just my mom and me) has been struggling for three years.

My aunt and uncle kicked us to the curb and basically abandoned us because my aunt doesn’t like when my uncle pays attention to people other than herself. She is just mean and possessive and very hurtful. I’ve missed birthdays, graduations, funerals, weddings, and babies being born because I could not afford to go back to my home state.

This job hunt is really getting to me, I just want something, but it’s like no one will give me the chance. Maybe it’s because of my s********. Maybe I’m just meant to go on welfare and stay home all day. I can’t even afford to go back to school because college materials are expensive. (I want to support myself in college as well.) Or maybe it’s my unique name. I try my best to impress, but I always get crapped on in the end. I refuse to go on welfare because I just want a job and no matter how many times I pray… it just doesn’t get answered.