I was in love with the guy i’m dating now for years. But ever sense we started dating we haven’t been hanging out very often and sometimes we will go almost a week without talking; and whenever he comes to see me i have to give him gas money. But yesterday i hung out with my ex boyfriend that i dumped for this guy at a community yard sale. he bought me lemonades and hot dogs and made me some pizza at his house. I had an amazing day with him, and this one time we were left alone in his room and we ended up making out. My best friend came in and saw it when she was coming to tell me we had to go help her grandma pack up her yard sale. i kept thinking about him the whole entire time and when we went over to his house to invite him to go swimming we started making out again but this time it was more h********. I’m pretty sure it would have turned into something more if we weren’t in his living room with his little brother, my best friend and her little cousin. The whole night afterwards i kept having dreams about him… i feel horrible about it but i can’t tell my current boyfriend because he told me if i ever cheated on me he wouldn’t break up with me he would just make my life a living hell; and also i can’t break up with him for my ex boyfriend because i would never be able to get back together with him (my current boyfriend).