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I have been recklessly f****** random guys I meet on the internet. I lie about my age and I lie about my name. I hate it, because I don’t even like it. I found out I actually hate s** and it disgusts me. Not just s**, but kissing too. I did it in the hopes of seeming more normal and trying to “fit in” more. I am also, extremely young to be doing that. I am in high school and I went after some guys that are older than twice my age. I have stopped mostly, but I never got the courage to tell anyone and I feel like I should. I need to stop this 100%. I have never cheated on my boyfriend and I have stopped ever since we started dating. He’s disgusted by those things just like me. But the thing is, I feel like he’s lying to me constantly (he admited he is) and I feel like that might just be another one of his lies. So, I kissed him in the hopes he was only shy. I feel like a horrible person because I hated it and he hated it too. And I forced him to do it, more than once. I literally am such a burden to him. He also does not treat me well most of the times, being indifferent when it comes to me. But I just can’t break up with him. Yet, we both know how toxic this relationship is. I go out, drink, smoke, beat up people while he’s home sleeping or doing his homework or playing games on his computer like a normal teenager would. Seriously, I have no idea where my life has come to. And not just that, but I also think I have been trying to sabotage myself just so I can commit suicide. Once everybody hates me and I hate myself too, I won’t have a reason to not do it. Then, I’ll just be able to “restart”. I don’t know in what I believe religiously, but I think I want to reach a point where anything, even nothingness or hell is better than staying here with myself.

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My mother and I have been f****** fot along time. Ever since my dad passed away one thing led to another me and my mom started to fooling around with each other and we’ve been doing it for what now 3 years since my dad died we were just got back from Las Vegas Nevada we went to a wedding up there and we had s** pretty much the whole time we were there because we don’t get to do it too often here because there’s just too many people around and so but we indulged in it pretty much did every position that we could think of and gambled a little bit and want some and that’s why my mom told me that my brother-in-law that married my sister had died couple days ago and I told my mom at the I wanted to tell my sister or surprise her with me and my mom having s** together and I want her to walk in on us kind of like but I haven’t talked to my sister in years and she owes me because of what she’s done to me and my father when my dad died she did some nasty things to the family and when I left Tahoe she did a couple nasty things to me so I wanted to get back at her so I told my mom that I was going to call her up never come up here I wanted mom to be in my room naked laying down with your legs spread and I was going to go and answer the door and I’m trying to come in my bedroom and there she’ll see my mom laying there naked and with the big spread wide open and I would walk right over and stick my c*** right up inside my mouth to see what my sister says. So my sister comes over to the house and let her in and lock the dopr and.told my sister i eanted her in my bedroom. So i open my door and mom is laying naked with her legs wide open and my sister looks at my mom and me and said what the hell is going on. I said what does it look like and she said it looks like you and mom have been f****** and then i said yes and i want you tp jpin in. She looked at me and said ypu have to be kidding me. I said nope i want you to take all your clothes off and take moms place. I look right at her and told her mom told me all about you and Dad so take off all your clothes and get over here she said mom why did you tell him about me and Dad because I asked her to. I know Dad was your first and I know Dad was f****** you when you guys would go out on your dad and daughter nights. So how many times did you f*** dad before mom found out and she said about 20 times or 30 times and said really cuz mom says that you started really enjoying dad’s c*** pumping you and making you c** but you never got pregnant from Dad

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