When I was growing up, my breasts had a tubular deformity. Only a few years ago did I finally get the money to have surgery and fix them, which left me when anchor shaped scars. It’s been a few years and the scars are still noticeable. I feel hideous, and they have no other redeeming qualities. They’re never going to look healthy and normal.

I’m thinking about scaring them more, to make it less obvious that I had surgery. People assume I’ve had implants, which disgusts me. Not that there’s anything wrong with implants, it just bothers me that people assume it. If I could cover them in more scars, I could lie and say I’m just into really rough masochism, maybe no one would ever know.