I lost my virginity today. To someone I met yesturday and who I knew has a girlfriend. He is also leaving tomorrow at 7 am back to another continent- where he lives. I have broken every f****** social rule. But truth is? I feel relieved, because he was gentle and we cuddled afterwards even if I knew he never gave a s*** about me- it was more than I ever expected to get. Am I to blame? Truth is, I gave so many failed opportunities to so many assholes to become good guys, I just decieded to give it to a good-looking a******. Because I’m sure that if I had waited for a non-a******, I would’ve probably lost it when I turned 60. So f*** you society, for making me feel gulty about liberating myself from you.
