I just want to go lie in a corner and never eat or drink or talk to anyone . I even almost envy people who are angry or want to kill themselves to end their pain (well kind of ) because this is the kind of clinical depression where it strangls you and you have no energy or strength to end the pain or cry or be angry . It’s so f****** horrible like someone dumped a bag of wet sand on my chest. Nobody I know gets it but that’s what depression is . I’m not just being lazy . I don’t want to do anything and there’s a massive f****** difference and I hate it.